Monday, December 14, 2009

Its mid Dec already..

Time flies~ 1 more week before Jerome turns 2 months old.. He is really a cutie pie.. his smiles really melts my heart~ Oh yes, he is a 'mini Ant'.. looks-wise. Pictures are uploaded in my FB.. lazy to post here again :p

My heart always feels warm when I look at my little baby boy.. the way he sleeps.. the way he cringes when he cries.. the way he squeeze his lil mouth into an 'o' shape as if trying to communicate with us.. the way he smiles..and of course his lovely baby scent.. i just love him so much!

I simply love to carry Jerome close to me, to smell him and to baby-talk him.. I guess all babies have this power to turn adults into a mush.. Its quite funny to witness how babies can transform the usually shy/fierce/quiet person into a baby-talking machine... :)

Motherhood this time round is much easier for me, thanks to my new helper. She is a young girl just fresh out from her pastor's home. May has a mild attitude, is willing to learn and quite shy at first. Oh and she really likes to sing! *she is singing this very minute to coax Jerome to sleep* I have no qualms about her singing, but she tends to sing a tad too loud for my liking.. actually i wonder how can Jerome sleep with that kinda volume?? lol~ Anyway, she is very hardworking too.. we keep asking her to go take a nap whenever she is free, but she just doesn't want to. Aiyo~ We are so worried she will be tired out..

As much as I love to bond with Jerome, I haven't forgotten about Ariel either. Maybe its due to my conscious effort to NOT neglect her, which in turn makes me give in to her whines and naughty behaviour most of the time. Big mistake! Now Ariel is becoming more spoilt! She cries at the slightest provocation and kicks up a big fuss over a minor thing.. and she expects the adults to rush to her side the moment she cries.. *sigh* I know all these are just her antics to seek our attention.. but i feel its getting way out of hand... its time i start to discipline her. I just hope she don't feel we are purposely punishing her and giving all our love to Didi.. its tough being a parent to 2 kids.. I'm a typical Libra, so i always make sure fair treatment and attention are given equally to both kids.. aiyo head big ar~~~

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I have been sending out applications for the past 1 week.. barely anyone replied... i feel so down and gloomy just thinking about this.. the future looks so bleak now.. hai~~ I really hope I will be able to find a good job asap!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Happy Birthday Jerome!

Baby Jerome has arrived on 21 Oct 2009!

My birth story as follows:

0300: Felt some contractions (definately not Braxton Hicks), slightly painful, but bearable. Woke up and time. Contractions came at 5-6 mins apart.

0400: 1 hour passed, can feel the contractions intensifying but still bearable. I even tell Ant that I want to 'tong' till 9am so that we can go my gynae's office to confirm that ITS time. (per previous experience hehee)

0500: Contractions came at every 4-5 mins. Getting more and more painful.. but STILL want to 'tong' till 9am... Almost cannot lie down/walk straight by now.. every wave of contraction almost knock me out!

0600: CANNOT TONG already! Contractions getting too painful by now. Ant said better admit to Mt A asap! Ariel was promptly forced to wake up.. last minute packings were done.. and i took a long-suffering bath (cos contractions were still coming on strong)..

0745: Reached Mt A finally. The walk from the carpark to the hospital was a torture! Had to stop dead in my tracks whenever a contraction came. I didn't care that I was in the middle of a busy carpark.. i just STOPPED there and winced in pain. :p A kind-hearted man saw that I was in great pain and offered to push us a wheelchair.. thank God for him!!

0750: Being wheeled to delivery ward immediately because I'm really in pain by now.

0755: Reached delivery ward. Midwife ask me to change into the hospital gown and pee into a cup (dunno for what). Took a longgggg time to get change cos I was hit with 2 contractions during this time. In the end, couldn't pee too due to the intense pain.

0805: Midwife did VE.. I was already 6-7cm dilated!!

(Asked for epidural 3 times but midwife keep rejecting me! She said by the time the anaesthetist come, my baby wld have already come out!)

0818: Felt a warm gush of water rushing out. Thought I had unknowingly peed, but turned out that my waterbag had burst on its own.

0820: Felt the urge to push. Started to push even though midwife asked me to wait for Dr Fong. (how to wait?!) Can feel my nether regions tearing when Jerome was crowning... *cringed at that thought*

0828: Arrival of Baby Jerome!

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Dr Fong came shortly after.. and as usual whenever I see him, i just felt very calm.. He just has this 'aura' around him that gives me the calming effect upon seeing him.. I know I can leave myself in his good professional hands.. i love my gynae la!

Dr Fong always like to chat with Ant about his research stuff.. so while the 2 guys were happily chatting away, I was happily getting high on laughing gas when Dr Fong was stitching me up... This time round I can feel the sting when he was stitching me.. cos I got no epidural to fall back on.. really thank God for the laughing gas! Though its not as effective as the epi, but at least it can take abit of pain away.. ouchie~

Dr Fong commented that I have a high threshold of pain. He was very incredulous when we told him that I still want to 'tong' till 9am to go his clinic to see him.. luckily we didnt wait any longer he said.. teehee~

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After resting in the delivery ward for awhile, I was wheeled to the normal ward. I was unbelievably energetic after giving birth (maybe its due to the laughing gas heh heh)! So I spent the next 2 hours chatting over smses!

Lunch was served shortly and not sure why, but my appetite seemed to be very good.. cos i gobbled everything up!

Overall this birth experience was very different from my 1st delivery where I was shivering & vomitting due to the after effects of epidural. I am actually quite glad that I went through this birth au naturale because now I know the real feeling of giving birth. And right now, I just feel very blessed with my 2 beautiful children. :)

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Pictures coming up!

Monday, October 19, 2009

Complicated

I was just reading barlee's blog.. and i cannot help but think... we must be twins in our previous lives! We may not be always facing the same sticky situations, but it seems that we always run into some problems at the same time!

Anyways.
*bar if you are reading this, just wanna tell you i suddenly miss you alot..dunno why.. *

If you notice, I hardly ever blog about my emotional well-being, but this time, I just feel like saying something. Maybe to let off steam. To make myself being 'heard'. But i know things won't change much. Have you ever heard that leopards never change its spots?

Anyway, I've been feeling like shiat for the past couple of.. months? years? I just feel so trapped.

Have also been flaring up frequently in the recent months.. and it all boils down to me being irritated by someone/something. Its like I have been bottling up all these feelings all these time and finally, I can't take it anymore! My mother once asked me why has my temper changed from being so mild in the past to being so explosive now.. To that, I can only say I am being forced into this. Who would want to morph into a scary monster who is so full of angst all the time? Everything happens for a reason.

I do pity Ariel.. because she has seen the worst side in me. And everytime after i exploded, i need to cover my feelings again and explained to her why Mummy did what she did...... :(

I think i need to change something in my life.. and it will definately be drastic. But me being me, I don't know how or where to start.......

I NEED TO GET OUT OF THE PITS~! But i am trapped.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Unconventional laundry

Hmmm~ What is lil Ariel doing?



Doing laundry at such a tender age?


Hanging up her 'unconventional' toys - Spoons and what-nots.. -___-"


Scrutinizing her 'laundry'..


*smile* The creativity of kids...


Hungry after doing laundry.. so snatch my food to eat.. aiyo~


Happily watching TV

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Photos Galore!

Finally a chance to upload photos, so taking this once-a-week opportunity to post everything up at once! *wink @ SIL*

The photos go all the way back to September..

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20 Sept 2009 - Heartwarming pics :)



'Specially for my Ting" Ant says
In order to protect his dignity, I had to mosaic away his spastic smile :p

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28 Sept 2009 - My birthday

For a full recount of my birthday experience, refer to earlier post.. :p Shall just post (the very limited) pics here~


Lets go!


On the way to Vivo



Having fun at the play area

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11 Oct 2009 - Pasting of wall decals in Ariel's & Didi's rooms

Ariel's room


The original wall decal




Close up of the stickers


Added in the word "Ariel" to cartoon-fied the decal - Reused from her 1st birthday! ;)

Didi's room


Original wall decal



Individual stickers of the planes




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10 Oct 2009 - Our Sleeping Beauty

While Daddy & Mummy are posing........




I am happily snoozing...





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16 Oct 2009 - Having fun with Playdoh





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17 Oct 2009 - Random pics of cheeky Ariel


Thursday, October 15, 2009

37th week and counting + WhiteDog Cafe

Went for my 37th gynae visit today. I actually went with an apprehensive heart, because I knew this visit would require me to do the Strep B test and possibly, a Vagina Examination (VE). The mentioned tests are mandatory for preggers in the final stage of pregnancy (eg 37th week and beyond), so.. there is really no way I can escape from this..

However, the pain that I thought I would feel didn't come from the Strep B test (i didn't do the VE afterall), but from what Dr Fong showed me through the scan..

My baby boy is back to a breech position! Horrors!! He has been a good boy all along, in a head-down position.. but not sure why, he suddenly turned into a transverse position yesterday! :(

Dr Fong was worried because I am already in my 37th week and already experiencing contractions, so he is not sure if baby will be able to turn in time next week - which is my 38th week aka my expected delivery week.

Ant and me literally became speechless, because we were so sure that I will go for natural delivery again this time. We asked if there are any chances of baby turning head down in a week's time.. Dr Fong didn't dare to promise us anything, instead he asked us to visit him next week to see how things go. If baby is still in a breech position, we will have to schedule for a c-sec........

Actually, in a warped sorta way, I am quite prepared for this. Although I am an advocate of natural delivery, but if it is God's will that I have to be operated to get my baby out, then so be it. As long as Baby J arrives into this world a healthy, normal and strong baby, that is enough for me. :)

Anyway, Baby J is weighing 2.7kg at week 37. Estimated weight at delivery would be ard 2.8-2.9kg. Nice weight!

So... after this would be another antagonizing wait for us.. because the next time when we visit Dr Fong, we will know if I will deliver via natural or c-sec....

Wish me luck!! Jia you Baby J! Turn down soon ok? And come out only when you are in your 38th gestational week.. or later! Be good darling. :)

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We were quite disoriented after our visit to Dr Fong's.. so decided to go for a nice lunch to relax our minds.

At our new haunt - WhiteDog cafe at VivoCity









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Since we were at Alexandra area, we went for some impromptu car 'window-shopping'. We are considering to change our car in view of the impending arrival of Baby J, and possibly a new helper.. so I think our trusty current car will be a tad squeezy if we squeeze in 2 new members, so we may to look for a bigger one.

We were quite impressed with 3 particular models thus far. 2 continental and 1 Japanese make. The Japanese one is stylish and affordable, whereas the other 2 are expensive, reliable, safe and wins at fuel consumption. I think we prefer the conti cars.

Anyway, we shall wait till things get settled 1st before we go for the test-drives.

VW.. i lub u!! But why are you so expensive... sigh~

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I'm still bugged by Baby J's breech position.. Really hope that he will turn down soon. I remember my mother telling me that I myself was in a breech position too.. but I managed to turn down at the very last minute.. so I hope Baby J will follow in my footsteps too. ;)

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Argh! Having aches at my tailbone now.. Can't sit, can't stand.. pain pain~~~ My mother says this is a sign of giving birth soon..

Monday, October 05, 2009

Babblings on a Monday afternoon

Here I am on a Thursday afternoon again.. babbling, as usual. I have so many things to update but because I know the post will be very dry due to lack of pictures (i can't upload them due to some technical problems geez), so i keep procrastinating.. as usual. Heh~

Anyway, this entry will be based on random things that popped into my puny brain that happened for the past few weeks..

*Edit* This post was supposed to go out LAST THURSDAY.. but now its already Monday of a brand new week... ho ho ho.. I ish the QUEEN of procrastinating!

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I have finally gotten my arse down to washing baby "J"'s clothes. Probably because i can feel him arriving soon.. plus the fact that the braxton hicks contractions are getting more and more frequent (thats the reality check man!), so i thought it would be better to wash those clothes asap!

Thanks to Mummy, SIL, MIL for helping with the sorting and washing of baby clothes.. I couldn't have done it alone.

Have also tidied up his wardrobe.. looks pretty bare for now.. only 2 drawers of clothes.. but 4 filled shelves of what-nots! eg: beddings..wet wipes..and miscellaneous stuff! *sheepish grin*

Oh yes! I packed my hospital bag too! Big thanks to my parents for helping me buy stuff like the buttoned-PJs and other essential stuff! They're really the sweetest!

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Bought wall decals for both kids' rooms. Need SIL's artistic & detailed eye to help with the actual pasting!

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Just had lunch with Ivy. Finally got my loot from her too heh~ Had a nice chat on babies.. BM..maids..schools and etc!

But after our chat, i realised there are still alot of things i haven't settled! Argh~! Robinsons 20% discounts, here i come!!

*Edit* Didnt get as many stuff there, quite a disappointed trip.

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My parents bought a lantern for Ariel. Its a Hello Kitty with hideous music.. I cringed whenever Ariel switches her lantern on... eecks... I'm so going to tape up that music source tonight!

*Edit* Ariel enjoyed herself so much on Mid-Autumn festival! There was a lantern festival held under my block and i think the RC members really make it a point to 'brighten' up the whole festive mood! Lanterns were hanginf from trees.. candles were lit up on the stone seats.. and plenty of kids' laughters and screeches from awful lanterns!

Didn't manage to take any photos cos we forgot to bring the camera down! What a waste!

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Will be going for my 35th week gynae visit tomorrow.. Gosh.. all the talks about giving birth, VEs and strep B test are giving me the creeps! Though this is my 2nd pregnancy, but yet everything feels so new and fresh?!

I really hope Dr Fong won't perform any VE for me tomorrow...

Am looking forward to seeing Baby J again! Wonder how much weight has he gained...

*Edit* No VEs and no strep B test were done.. thank God! And baby J is weighing 2.4kg at 35 weeks! :)

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Oh yes!! I had a wonderful birthday celebration on 28 September. Initially I didn't plan to take leave to celebrate, but Ant insisted that he had already taken leave for me and thus 'force' me to take together with him.. so i had to take lor.. at the very last minute! But ok la, i admit that is a really sweet gesture from him.. and we decided not to let Ariel go to school that day so that we can celebrate as a family.

Our lunch was settled at Jack's Place [si bei DUH i tell u.. there's already 1 Jack's place near my place but dunno why Ant decided to drive ALL THE WAY (and got lost in the midst) to West Coast just to have lunch there..]

Anyway..

Didn't manage to take pictures at all because 1st, camera no batt (i didnt' intend to take leave to celebrate remember?).. 2nd, too hungry and 3rd, gotta entertain & discipline Ariel!

Sidetrack abit, Ariel is really getting vocal these days.. and she's becoming a handful! Previously she used to be an angel whenever we were out, but these days, her devilish ways are coming out.. she actually held a conversation with Waitress A and insisted that she wants to sit on a highchair.. then subsequently, she actually stuck out her tongue at Waitress B when the latter wanted to play with her! OMG so embarassing..kill me please..

So.. back to the topic. After our lunch, I asked Ant what had he planned for me since he's the one who insisted that I took leave.. then he said: "Go Sentosa".. I was like: "Are you crazy?! Weather so hot! I don't want!"

So... we went to Vivocity to enjoy their air-conditioning... [si bei DUH right!!] muahahahhahaha..

Ariel fell asleep enroute to Vivo.. and she slept all the way till 4+pm.. So Ant and I had all the time in the world to shop and stroll leisurely in Vivo.

I really enjoyed the '2-people-world' time with Ant.. cos this is so hard to come by! Especially when we are all so caught up with work, Ariel, the impending arrival of Baby J and what-nots. And people who know me also knows that Ant lovessss to irritate me non-stop, so to have that 'special time' for us alone only (where Ant morph into a 'normal husband'), is REALLY REALLY rare.. So.. Thanks LG for making the effort to spend time with me and Ariel on my birthday! *muacks*

*Edit* I have some photos.. but due to above-mentioned technical problem, no way to upload.. arghhhhh!

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Oh yes! I was introduced to this 4-leaf clover thingy from my colleague. And apparently, 4 leaf clovers are known to bring luck to people! Since most of us need luck in our lives right now, we decided to go down to Cuppage plaza to take a look at the infamous Julie Roberts shop which sells these clovers.

Initially I wanted to just buy 1 for Ant..but in the end I decided to get 1 for myself too. So Ant suggested that I pay for his and he pay for mine... abit DUH but i appreciate his thoughtful gesture.. :P SIL got 1 for herself too.

After making our purchases, we saw this Singapore Pools stall selling toto & 4D.. so we thought to ourselves.. since we are supposedly 'blessed' with luck from our newly-bought clovers, why not just try our luck with toto & 4D? LOL.. so we just went with the flow and bought a few cheap tickets.. heh heh!

HUAT AR!!

*Edit* No luck with tot & 4D..... chey~ But nvm, we need more luck with other aspects in our lives!

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Have been plagued with groin and pelvic pains since Sunday.. its really painful.. and its affecting my ability to walk and sleep properly.. :(

Everytime I toss/turn in my sleep, i will wake up with a yelp because of the pain.. coupled with the fact that I need to pee very frequently in the night now.. sigh~ Every movement will just make me wanna bang my head and faint so that i can forget about moving an inch!

Maybe these are signs that I will be giving birth soon.. :S

Baby J: Please stay in Mummy's tummy till at least week 38th ok.. by then you will be a strong and healthy baby and you can come out anytime you want.. be a good boy yah~

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Just realised 1 Nov MTB has given birth!! OMG!!! Reality check for me again!!